I have mentioned this on my Facebook page but I was reminded of it yesterday when someone from the bariatric surgery program at University of Michigan Hospital contacted me yesterday regarding the informational meeting I'm going to attend about the surgery. In case you don't follow me on Facebook I have a pretty big decision to make. My doctor in charge of assisting me with my weight issues told me a couple of weeks ago that my only choice to control my weight in a healthy way (at my age and weight) is to do the bariatric surgery. I being an open minded person told her I would go to the meeting about it but that I would like at least one more option (but specifically I told her that I wanted to try using diet and excercise to take control). She began to get noticablly upset with me and said that only 2% of people can maintain healthy weight with diet and excercise. I immediately tried not to laugh and reset my BS meter because it had been blaring loudly in my brain.
So next Wednesday I will be going to this meeting and I'm completely on the fence. I plan on bringing a notebook, asking lots of questions, and getting as much information as I can get. The other side of the coin is I've been watching NBC's 'The Biggest Loser' for the first time in my life this year. I know what people say...blah blah blah it isn't the REAL way people can lose weight. I beg to differ, as a first time viewer the show isn't even pretending that this is what EVERYONE should be doing, it instead is inspiring people to add more activity, add better nutritional items to your diet, and address the mental portion of how your brain thinks when it comes to maintaining weight. I have been very inspired by it and hoping it gets picked up for another season because I would TOTALLY audition for the show. I'm all about pushing myself and being the Brian that I once knew, and if it helps others do the same...well thats ok too. For years people told me I should be on the show and because I had never watched it I just kept saying "well I'll think about it." My good friend Johnny Flynn took me one year to audition but we were 1 of 2000 people in line and I knew I'd never get to the front so like many moments in my life...I gave up. I'm NOT giving up anymore. This is war...even if the axis of evil is myself at times. I'm going to beat this weight problem and it may be one way and it may be another. Either way, it WILL make me grow as a person...but not around the waist.
The hardest part of this whole journey is the waiting...waiting for the bariatric meeting, waiting for 'The Biggest Loser' audition, waiting to see the weight drop, waiting for my next wave of energy, waiting for life to open the next door of my career and so on! I feel like I've been in a waiting room my whole life...just waiting for the moment to say I'M HERE!! I guess it comes with the territory but needless to say the waiting sucks!
